Adam and I have spent the past week going non-stop. Between seeing our family and friends for the holidays, cleaning out the condo and prepping for the trip, we’ve had no time to think.
Today was our last day in Toronto. Our flight is at 8:10 am Monday Dec 31, which means we need to be at the airport by 5:00 am, which means I should be in bed right now! But I don’t think I can sleep at this point. It’s already 1:30 am, sleeping now will just be a tease.
Saying goodbye to my mom was a lot more difficult than expected! You’d think I’d be nothing but happiness, excitement and rainbows. But I think it was that moment that everything sunk in. We’re going to be away for a year and that was the last time I was going to see my mom for a long time. Huge pangs of guilt hit me like a ton of bricks. I feel terrible that I won’t be around if my mom needs me. Usually it’s just for tech support, but still!
Adam picked me up from my mom’s at 10:00 pm and we headed over to the Hanna residence. Mr Hanna greeted me warmly as usual and we chatted briefly about how this is going to be difficult but incredible at the same time. I could feel tears pooling up then but I couldn’t understand why. We weren’t talking about anything particularly sad.
I dropped my stuff off, and was then greeted by Adam’s sisters Mary and Olivia. I’m not exactly sure what happened there but the flood gates opened. I started crying uncontrollably and couldn’t make it stop! Adam said it’s my “emotions” or something.
Adam’s Uncle Mike gave us a bit of a pep talk and encouraged us to keep pushing on. So push on we shall!
I’m going to miss everyone so friggin much. I need to go cuddle our cats for the remaining few hours we have left.
My apologies for this choppy post, I’m pretty tired.